No more heart-warming stories

silvey @ 2009-06-16T11:10:00

2009-06-16T11:05:01Z

I was chatting to Fu last night and she said someone big in fandom had died, but I didn't ask too much since the fandoms Fu does are different from the ones I do so I thought I wouldn't know them. Then when checking my f-list today I noticed likespring mentioning it was Minotaur who died. I remember Minotaur's sex tips for slash writers. Of course I do!

Fandom is something I've done for a long time now. You could say I know when I first hit fandom, it's when I first saw Star Trek. When I was in my second year of high school so 97? Maybe it wasn't really fandom back then, because it was just me, but I saw star trek and fell in love. I remember watching Star Trek for the first time, and I remember the first book I bought, a star trek novel. I remember the first internet scearch I did, which was for reviews of the new Star Trek movie, Insurection, which nicely dates my aquisition of the internet to late 98, early 99. I remember finding my first fanfiction. This was back in the day when nat access was on dial up and therefore we were limited to an hour a day, and I remember, on that first fanfiction reading session, not finishing the story and printing it out, then reading it later in bed, so I still have somewhere the printed version of the first fanfiction I ever read. I remember running to my dad in exctiement to tell him I'd found all these Star Trek stories online and I could read as many and I wanted for free. I remember, when I got more net savy, opening windows before I logged of so I could maximise my net time to finding fanfic to get me through the rest of the day/evening. I remember talking myself up to writing my first fanfic, and posting it. I opened my ff.net account in Feburary of 2000 when I was 14.

I also remember how I got into slash. It was my final year of high school, probably in 2001. I found, through browsing articles, an accademic article on Slash fandom. I was intriequed. It was new and exciting, taking the old characters that I loved and making new interpretations of them. I didn't have to accept that in space everyone was straight, in space you could be gay too. It was an exciting new door I'd never opened before. I read everything I could around it, every article I could find so before I even t ouched slash fanfiction I knew more about the history and mechanics of slash then most people in the fandom. It took me a while to get up the courage to actually read and write slash, but from those early discoveries it was an inevitability.

A lot of the web sites I visited early on where I learned what slash is are lost to me now, long gone into the mists of time, but one I to remember is Minotaur's sex tips for slash writers. I don't think it's any exadgeration to say that his page changed how a generation of slash writers think and write about slash. It certainly very much informed my writing. He's not someone I ever spoke to personally, but he is someone who shaped fandom around us. Even if you've never read his site yourself, the ideas you see around fandom about how sex should be written probably relate to him. I'm reading over other people's memories now and it all takes me back, things I hold as given, things that have stuck with me and which I was being annoyed about seeing done badly just days ago, came from him. I never knew him as a person so I can't say I'll miss a friend as so many can, but he's changed the way I see fandom, the way I experience fandom, and helped in opening up a whole new world to me. Slash fanfiction might not seem like a lot of some people but it's meant one hell of a lot of me over the years and I'm sure I'd be a very different person now if I'd never discovered it.

I think, this week, I'm going to find time to re-read his site. It seems a strange way to pay tribute to someone, but it's one of the major contributions he made to fandom and we should make sure we don't forget it. He reached out and touched people he's never met, and from what I can gather from people who did meet him he was a genuinely loving and caring man who made the lives of those around him better. I think that all slash writers should acnowledge and remember him this week, for even if you've never heard of him before today he has almost certainly shaped your fandom in some way.

Minotaur's sex tips for slash writers

FMA fic - Well, fuck - Roy/Ed

2009-05-05T17:40:47Z

Title: Well, fuck
Fandom/original: Fullmetal Alchemist
Characters: Roy/Ed
Rating: PG-13 (lots of swearing, implication of sex)
Word count: 622

I'm a bit worried about writing this pairing at this point, since I've been reading Rainjoy all weekend so I'm probably writing Rainjoy's Ed and Roy rather then my own interpretations but, oh well.

Written for dailyprompt at dreamwidth.

I fucking hate you Roy. Hate you so fucking much! Do you know how much easier life would be for me if I’d never met you? If I’d never met you? If you’d never come poking your nose into my fucking life then, well, I’d have never joined the military, that’s for sure. Ok, maybe I’d still have fucked up a lot. I mean, I fucked up before you ever got there...but me and Al would have gone out alone and, ok, yeah...but we’d have sorted him out eventually you fucker. You know I would, I’d never have left him like that. And if I’d never been in the military then I wouldn’t have to know how fucking ugly the world is. Do you get that, I was a fucking kid, Mustang. You took a kid and showed me all the absolute worst things in the world. You fucking walked past me with a smirk while I bled, you shit. Maybe not literally but...you fucker. All the ones who are dead because of me, because met me, they’d all still be alive today if it wasn’t for you, you fucking idiot. The things I’ve done. You should have just never come anywhere near me, Roy. I mean, you just fuck me up...and I fuck you up to, right? You’d be a lot better off without me.

If we hadn’t...if we didn’t fall in love. I mean, fuck, this sounds fucking stupid. If I didn’t love you, you fucker, I could have a fucking normal life. I could have a wife by now, you absolute piece of shit. I wanted a family, Roy. Do you even know how much I wanted a family? I want babies. Shit Roy, want them so bad. Little people, people I can protect, love, make everything right for. So many things in my life have been wrong, Roy, I just want one thing to be right. But I can’t. Can’t marry a fucking woman, can’t have babies, because I’m fucking in love with you. Because I’m in love with you I end up doing the stupidest shit just to make you smile. I’d kill for you, you fucker. I wish I didn’t have to kill but I would for you. I have, for you. And you say you love me too but, well, where’s the proof?

And god, now I sound like a fucking idiot. I’d tear myself to pieces for you, Roy. You must know that. I fucking hate it but it’s true, I’d destroy myself for you and you just smirk at me and use me like a fucking weapon, like a fucking dog. I’m not a dog of the military, am I Roy? I’m your dog! Your stupid puppy who comes running at your every word.

How much easier it would be if I didn’t love you. If I didn’t have to hide like this, because you need me in the military under your command more then you need a lover. If I didn’t have to pretend. I mean, not to Al, I’d never lie to Al...but nobody else knows. Nobody else knows you fucker. Do you make me do that so you never have to let me know the truth, that you hate me and you can’t stand to be see with me. Will you ever just stand up and admit to the world that you’re fucking me.

Shit, Mustang. The things I do for you. You know the most ridiculous thing? I know all this shit but tonight I’m going to go crawling to you like your fucking love sick puppy again, begging for scraps. It’s no point thinking all this bullshit because you did meet me, and I do love you.

Fuck.

silvey @ 2009-01-18T17:21:00

2009-01-18T17:25:00Z

Ep 39 of soul eater

I thought I knew waht was going to happen because I thought I'd read spoilers but omfg that so wasn't what I was expecting. Crona! It was amazing, I swear if I was writing the scene as Crona/Maka fanfiction I would have made it exactly the same way. I'm such a happy fangirl, once I've had dinner I'm going to have to go and watch it again! It even made my cry a little...I would have probably bawled my eyes out if I wasn't sat in the living room with Anna.

Oh, and Clannad after story made my cry earlier today (last scene of ep 12). I've been having a crying at anime day, apparently. Why do I not have any friends up to date with coul eater anime I can phone and fangirl at?

silvey @ 2008-11-29T10:52:00

2008-11-29T10:53:19Z

This is too good NOT to share!

Science by the medium of interprative dance!

silvey @ 2008-11-26T23:25:00

2008-11-26T23:26:10Z

Help Rape Crisis in a few easy steps.

silvey @ 2008-11-04T19:47:00

2008-11-04T21:55:58Z

Bechdel test -
1. It has to have at least two women in it,
2. Who talk to each other,
3. About something besides a man.[4][5]

I will apply this test to the random 1st eps we're watching tonight. It's much easier for a series to pass the test then a movie because of the increased length (the rule was written for movies) but I'll have a go anyway.

Hidamai Sketch - Passes! Though this is a key example of the type of anime that immediatley spring to mind when I think of the Bachdel test, ones where the entire cast is composed mostly of schoolgirls and men aren't mentioned. Presumably, as men aren't mentioned at early, we are meant to view these as your girls who aren't old enough to deal with relationships yet. It almost reminds me of the romantic friendships that used to exist in the west, where homo-romantic relationships were encouraged as a kind of preperation for the intimacy of marriage which would come later. Hidamari sketch also spends too much time with the girls, who are all cute and sweet, obsessing over their apperances and weight to get any real feminist street cred, but it's a start.

Dark buttler effort thing - Fails! Only one woman, mainly concerned with falling over in a moe manner and impressing the butler guy. She's also incompetent but that's not so much of an issue as all three side characters are equally incompetent and two of them are men. Do Japanese men really find ridiculously clumsy women who can't stand on their own feet for more then ten minutes that attractive? She can't even hit a glass with a drink. If I actually wanted to attract Japanese men I'd be really upset about all the effort I took to stop falling of chairs and being horribly clumsy earlier in life.

Lovely complex - Passes! Nobu and Risa talk about tests for like two lines...and Chiharu-chan too! See, they soon ervert to talking about guys but...yeah...for a while! It passes, damnit! I love this show so much! OTANI-KUN! And Saiko-chan. Gambate, Risa-chan. T_T I love this so much! I want to finish it and rewatch the bits I've already soon...bear stew and all. Risa and Otani are such dorks! Iwant to do this in an all-nighter so much but I just KNOW it would result in my crying...I mean, it does anyway...yeah. Oh I love this show so VERY much!

Frieball - Fail! Too be fair, it has two characters and they're both robots. Though one is female and one is male so still no.

Chocolate underground - Fail! Nope, no women talking to each other here. There is actually a scene where a young woman talks to an older woman who is her carer but I'm not counter mother(female adult)/child interactions.

Tower of Druaga - Fail! Doesn't even seen to have two women in the same scene. There's a scene where tentacles burst from the ground and mollest a girl...this doesn't seem to be feminist friendly. Other then that it's kind of cute, and I know what it was taking the piss of so I'll forgive it...Very funny. I think after this battle I'll return to my hometown and get married.

Now I give up because I need to go write some words for me Nano XD That is all.

silvey @ 2008-11-02T21:08:00

2008-11-02T21:20:41Z

Rabbit and cider stew is delicious. And I got mash potoatoes and dumplings and top gear also, all of which make me a happy girl. We're now watching Stephen Fry IN AMERICA. I need to do some more writing. Went to a writing meet today, it was ok. We're going to have a write-in on Wednesday so I should get some more word count done then.

Was going to write more last night, then I drank a bottle of wine. I can't write after I've drunk, even if I've only drunk a little. And I didn't just drink a little.

silvey @ 2008-10-30T11:40:00

2008-10-30T11:52:46Z

Dragon eggs, because I'm one of the cool kids.

Also, I have a headache. It makes me sad.

silvey @ 2008-10-24T14:21:00

2008-10-24T13:40:49Z

Me:
God, are you an idiot?
God:
I am a Christian.

Me:
Nick said they serve good cider in Hell
God:
Not many people express themselves that way.

Me:
Will you vote for McCain?
God:
Barring any unforseen circumstances. Ask me another question.

Me:
God...do you ever watch Heroes?
God:
GOD rules. My favorite show is STAR TREK VOYAGER.

http://www.titane.ca/igod/

silvey @ 2008-10-23T22:08:00

2008-10-23T21:20:25Z

Meme time!

1. Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/etc. that you've had an obsessive fannish love interest in at some time in your life.
2. Have your f-list guess your favorite character from each item.

1. Bleach
2. Naruto
3. Soul Eater
4. Buffy the vampire slayer
5. Enterprise
6. Hellsing
7. Harry Potter
8. Pani Poni Dash
9. Mahou Shoujo Lyrical Nanoha
10. Tenchi Muyo
11. Hairspray
12. Azumanga Daioh
13. The melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
14. Lucky Star
15. Top Gear
16. Heroes
17. Lovely Complex
18. Phoenix Wright
19. Genshiken
20. Read or Die

(Yeah...some of them are more vague likes...I decided I was going to have 20 then...yeah...)

Also, should I do Nano this year. I wasn't going to but the more I think about it, I'm getting won over to the idea. It's probably a bad thing. Guess I'll look over my novel notes tomorow and see if it's in a state I can Nano it. Got other writing commitments coming up too and need to fire of another round of Yuri_challenge. Maybe collect prompts through November?

Yeah...

Oh, and brining laptop to anime soc is actually a great idea. I should do this more often.

silvey @ 2008-10-13T00:24:00

2008-10-13T00:02:14Z

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:

1. Hello Shiraishi Minoru, I'm your biggest fan. Please live in our attic.
2. So you're giving me a billion pounds? Thanks.
3. Why yes, I would like some delicious cake. Thanks.
4. I'd be happy to come to your sister's wedding!
5. Of course it was just a dream, Kagami...no subliminal meaning there...
6. So, Nanoha-chan, you and Fate are gay for each other, right?
7. Stop watching me, I'm not masturbating in the living room! Damn you, ceiling cat!!!!!!!
8. Mikuru-chan...can I have a hug? You're so cute!!!!!
9. Otani-kun, you're an idiot!
10. Please get of my TV, dogtato-kun!

Nine Things About Myself:
1. I'm not taking this meme seriously.
2. I may or may not be a small green turnip.
3. I'm a woman.
4. One day, I'll make peas stand up.
5. I have feet.
6. Nick belongs to me.
7. So does Rupert.
8. Probably some other people too.
9. I'm eating a chocolate.

Eight Ways NOT to Win My Heart:
1. Consider my heart something to be won.
2. Set fire to my hair.
3. Tell me you hate me.
4. Kiss me like you're trying to eat my face.
5. Tell me I'm fat and ugly.
6. Tell me how wonderful you are.
7. Come on to my adorable children.
8. Offer me a vegetarian meal.

Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
1. Santa monica, Santa monica...
2. FUKO-CHAN!!!!! T_T
3. Has anyone texted me?
4. I want a hug.
5. Oh yeah...I should have done that...
6. Damn bastards...
7. Something about science.

Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
1. Change into my pjs
2. Brush my teeth
3. Pester Nick
4. Get into bed
5. Turn of the lights
6. Paractice interpretive dance.

Five People Who Mean a Lot:
1. Shiraishi Minoru
2. Fuko-chan
3. Nanoha-chan
4. Mikuru-chan
5. My adorable daughter.

Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now:
1. Jeans
2. Top
3. Bra
4. A smile

Three Songs I Listen to a Lot:
1. Sayonara Zetsubou sensei opening
2. Fairytale - Sarah Barellies
3. Soul Eater opening

Two Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
1. Become immortal.
2. Kill Nick

One Confession:
1. I don't actually have feet, I lied.

silvey @ 2008-10-11T01:18:00

2008-10-11T00:30:38Z

Bold = true
Italics = comments

Appearance:
I am 5′ 4″ or shorter.
I think I'm ugly sometimes.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair were a different color.
I have friends that have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have (had) braces.
I wear glasses
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, and didn't leave scars.
A complete stranger has told me that I'm attractive.
I have/had more than two piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles

Family/home life:
I've sworn at my parents.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling who is less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I've lost a child.

Embarrassment:
I've slipped out a "LOL" in spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard that I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public.

Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've had stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.

Traveling:
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
I've been to France.

Experiences:
I've been lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny-dipping.
I've played spin-the-bottle.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the Internet.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've played chicken.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten sushi.
I've been snowboarding.

Relationships:
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm available.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been dumped more than I have dumped.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've been divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality:
I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
I've kissed a member of the same sex.
I've had sex with someone of the opposite sex.
I've had sex with someone of the same sex.
I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've had sex outdoors.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/crime:
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've shoplifted.

Drugs/alcohol:
I've consumed alcohol.
I smoke cigarettes.
I smoke pot.
I drink regularly.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't really need them.
I've done hard drugs.
I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
I take cough meds when I'm not sick.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about five pills at a time, no problem.

Mental health:
I have received a diagnosis of depression.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take antidepressants.
I have (had) an eating disorder.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I'm addicted to self-harm.
I've woken up crying.

Death:
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
I have attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.

Random:
I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others too easily.
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs.
I hate songs that sacrifice meaning for rhyme scheme.
I fucking curse regularly, goddamn.
I sing in the shower.
I am a morning person.
I paid for my ringtone.
I'm a grammar snob.
I am a sports fanatic.
I play with my hair.
I have (had) Xs in my screen name.
I love being neat.
I love Spam.
I've copied more than thirty CDs in one day.
I bake well.
My favourite colour is white, yellow, pink, red, or blue.
I don't know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of typing LiKe ThIs.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I play video games.
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
My answers are totally honest.

silvey @ 2008-10-03T17:18:00

2008-10-03T16:24:00Z

Hello. I seem to have survived a week of work. Well, a week of induction. My head is buzzing with protocols and names and faces. There are more commitees here then you would believe! And I'm taking the training manual home with me to try and get my head around it before I have a meeting with my supervisor on monday.

But, other then that and my stupidly breaking my bike (I'm a genius) life is good. I've got my new laptop, we're all up and running, I'm on it right now. Things are going well in other ways. I'm mostly happy, which is nice :) When I'm happy I feel like I don't have much to say.

Oh yeah, I'm going to the London expo XD My mum agreed to let me, so I'm happy about that (though now I have to get my cosplay spruced up in time).

All in all, I'm doing good.

silvey @ 2008-09-27T13:39:00

2008-09-27T12:39:26Z

Hey everyone, it's meme time!

If you're on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better!

Comment here and repost a blank one on your own journal.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

silvey @ 2008-09-22T10:14:00

2008-09-22T09:27:40Z

OMFG it's an update! Nick must be back becasue I was drunk last night.

Random, did you lot (and by that I probably mean Chloe as she's the only one who'd care) know that Reclaim the night London doesn't allow transwomen to march? That's disapointing because I'm sure as hell never attending now. If we're not reclaiming the nights for some of the most vulnerable women, are specifically excluding these vulnerable women, then I certainly don't want anything to do with it.

Anyway, what have I done this week? Not a lot. I'm mostly enjoying living in a house with friends, it turns out to be quite fun. I like this casual socialising malarky that happens when you run into someone in your own living room. Quite nice. Not a lot's gone on, really. We have a full house again, Anna and I hatched some evil plans and put stuff on the hallway walls, I ordered some bookcases, that's about it.

We went out to the pub last night and got drunk, that was fun. Sam kept telling us how much he misses Rupert which, for some reason, lead to a load of us texting him with declerations of love, including Nick asking him to marry him, which was great fun at the time. My phone keeps breaking because Fuko-chan is too awsome which makes me sad, but it's working at the minute so I won't tempt fate. Don't care much about other conversations...the guy at the bar got deeply excited when he realised I drank malt whiskey, that was amusing. I decided to have a little and the first guy at the bar was like "Oh, we don't have any of that, here, have this bourbon, it's higher precentage" and I was like "gtfo" then the other guy came over and started making recomendations and got all excited.

Anyway, it was a good night out.

And tonight, with any luck, we're going to have an adventure in bookcase building, since they should be delivered today and there is assembly required. It will be an exciting adventure and, hopefully, after that I'll be able to have my books off the floor and onto some shelves.

Yay, shelves.

silvey @ 2008-09-18T22:53:00

2008-09-18T23:00:04Z

Fandom character meme questions answers...

First, here is my list :)

1. Seras Victoria
2. Asahina Mikuru
3. Fuko-chan
4. Okazaki-kun
5. Integra Hellsing
6. Maka-chan
7. Rock Lee
8. Yagami Hayate
9. Konata
10. Nagisa-chan
11. Kagami
12. Miles Edgeworth
13. Kuchiki Rukia
14. Takamachi Nanoha
15. Kurosaki Ichigo
16. Phoenix Wright
17. Gaara
18. Fate Testarossa
19. Kyon-kun
20. Soul Eater
21. Suzumiya Haruhi
22. Abaria Renji

Now, on to the questions!

1. Rock Lee realises that Integra Hellsing is a murderer, and hires Phoenix Wright to sue their ass of.
Not a questions but...ok. Sure, why not? I mean, in the most technical of sensese in that she spends a lot of time blowing vampires up, she is. And I'm sure murder isn't very youthful so I doubt Lee approves. Of course, Phoenix Wright is a defense attourney so he's going to be switching sides for this one...but whatever, I'm sure he'll do it to be closer to Edgeworth, or for justice or something...

2. Seras Victoria realises that Kyon-kun is their biological parent, what is there reaction?
0_0 Well, since he's younger then her...and live in Japan...and she's English...I think it would be something along the lines of "OMGWTF!!!!". Doesn't she have Daddy issues in the anime? Can't remember. Anyway, I'm sure a vampire is just what Haruhi needs to complete her collection, therefore she will move to Japan to be close to him and wacky hijynx will ensue.

3. What is Kagami's worst fashion disater?
Konata, being seem in public with. Does that count? Well, it should.

4. Gaara demands cake who makes better cake Yagami Hayate or Takamachi Nanoha?
Gaara demands cake! Gaara must have cake. However, making cake is Hayate-chan and Nanoha-chan. I have seen this battle, I know how it works. Hayate-chan inadvertently makes evil cake, Nanoha punches her a few times, they become friends for life and make a cake together which they give to Gaara. This causes him to become their friend for life also and they all skip of together to live in a lesbian commune. It's paractically canon. Because everyone is gay for Hayate-chan.

5. Mikuru-chan, Fuko-chan, Okazaki-kun, Integra and Maka-chan form a visual kei J-rock band which one do people think is actually a girl (and if they're girls in the band do people think they're girls or guys)?
This goes without saying, people frequently think Integra is a man (no, woman! In the manga it's obvious and in the anime they get her tits out so no excuses.) so it would have to be Integra.

6. What is Abarai Renji's zombie plan (if they have one?)
Faced with a hoard of zombies...Renji would hit them with his sword till they die. It's his general reaction to most of life's problems, and has the bonus of being effective in this circumstance.

7. Miles Edgeworth and Kuchiki Rukia are starring in a re-make of Moonchild (lolz) who plays Gackt and who plays Hyde?
Who's the gayest, because they HAS to be Edgeworth.

8. Is Phoenix Wright's picture on the natural breast gallery?
...........no...........maybe....no. Definetley not.

9. Rock Lee posts this meme in his journal. What 15 characters do they put on their list? What sorts of questions do Seras Victoria, Maka-chan, and Nagisa-chan ask?
Um...I'm not sure. Lee would pick characters full of youthful energy! Seras would ask questions about whether or not a given character would become a vampier (becasue she's so emo), Maka-chan would come up with well thought out questions that were interesting to answer and I suppose Nagisa-chan would mainly have questions about the theater or maybe some stereotypically girly ones like "If 3 and 6 kissed, what would 2 thing?".

10. Hayate-chan has blackmail information on Okazaki-kun. Suzumiya Haruhi discovers this information. What is his/her/its reaction? What is Hayate-chan blackmailing from Okazaki-kun?
Sorry, my brain short circuits at Hayate-chan blackmailing anyone. Maybe if it was the only way to save the universe she might, Ok...Ikazaki-kun is a god like Haruhi and is going to cause a universal reset (how else would he get so many cute girls interested in him?). Hayate decides that the only way to stop him is to blackmail him into keeping this universe or she'll tell Nagisa-chan that he once had a dirty dream about...random number generator says 15...Kurosaki Ichigo. Haruhi finds out and, in true Phoenix Wright style, solves the case mostly be dragging Kyon around by his tie.

11. Mikuru-chan and Fuko-chan are arranging a meetup of online friends. What other numbers come to this meetup? Where do they meet at? What sort of adventures to they get up to? Do any numbers end up forming Tru Luv 4-Eva type relationships?
Well, Mikuru-chan and Fuko-chan are both so adorable and ernest that everyone would show up since they tried to hard. Since this is an offline meet up we have to at least one "OMFG you were sexyhotguy9932435 all this time? I never knew and am now in love with you!" incident and I think that should be Edgeworth and Phoenix. They will go to the park for a picnic and have other joyful celebrations like running in the grass and playing a generac ball game. Fate-chan, Nanoha-chan and Hayate-chan will fall asleep in a suggestive position which will become a Megami poster. Nagisa-chan will bring a home made lunchbox to share with Okazaki-kun. Haruhi will evaluate everyone there based on their moe character. Konata will grope Haruhi. Kagami will have a conference with Kyon about how hard their lives are.

12. Konata Buys a new sofa from Fate-chan, which turns out to be broken. How does Konata get revenge?
Well, to start with, she can't becasue if she tries anything Fate-chan is probably the Nanoha character most likely to shoot you in the ass. Konata would use piles of Manga to fashion a replacement sofa.

13. Kurosaki Ichigo hires Soul-kun as a hitman/woman to take out Miles Edgeworth, do they succeed, and how do they attempt the hit?
Since Edgeworth is noted mostly for loosing every time Phoenix Wright so much as glances at him and wearing pink and Ichigo and Soul are both noted for beating the shit out of stuff...I think they might win. Of course, unless you got Maka-chan in on the deal you have the entire problem of Ichigo probably not being able to use Soul, but Soul could probably take Edgeworth out without too many problems all on his own.

14. Suzumiya Haruhi challenges Nanoha to eat Rukia's weight in chicken. How far does Nanoha get?
0_0 First of all, Haruhi would so totally do that. Secondly, Rukia is small and scrawny so, while Nanoha wouldn't finish it, there would be much to eat to start with so she'd manage a decent portion.

15. Kagami, Gaara, Kyon-kun and Renji appear on QI. Who's Stephen Fry's favourite and who gets the most points?
Alan Davies is always Steven Fry's favourite, silly. He just hides it well. Anyway, out of them...Gaara would kill the audience with sand or, if we're post time-skip, sit there looking at them blankly. Renji is thick so he'd not get many points, so we're down to Kyon and Kagami. I think they'd both try hard but Kyon might just have the edge in that he's kissed god. Kyon wins.

16. Nagisa-chan and Phoenix Wright are on the run from the law, where does Phoenix Wright suggest they go, and what does Nagisa-chan suggest they do when they get there.
Well, obviously, Phoenix takes them to Germany so he can sleep with Edgeworth...or something. Once there, Nagisa will use her amny acting abilities to create disguises for them and spend the rest of her life writing sad but well recieved plays about being on the run from the law.

17. Fate-chan becomes the Prime Minister of the UK, how does he deal with Kurosaki Ichigo, the leader of a rogue nation in Eastern Asia with nuclear capabilities, and what are Ichigo's demands?
Ichigo wants hiw womens back, damnit! Fate's response will depend primarily on the amount of danger Nanoha is in. As I boudt Nanoha can withstand a nuclear explosion, she will negotiate but she's willing to use force if she has to (or it seems vaguelly appropriate).

18. Mikuru, Kagami and Soul Eater start a band - what sort of music do they play and what is their band name?
Some kind of jazz would be appropriate, I guess. I'm really shit at band names so I don't know XD

19. There is one cupcake left, Hayate-chan and Miles Edgeworth fight over it - who wins?
Well, normally everyone is gay for Hayate, but Edgeworth is already gay for Phoenix (and he'd be straight for Hayate-chan). Anyway, in the spirit of cooperation, I imagine them as being the kind who would slip the cupcake between them.

20. What would Integra buy Renji for his birthday?
A gun. I feel that guns are something they can both relate to, as they both have a fondness for blowing shit up.

21. Okazaki-kun writes fanfiction about Gaara and Fuko-chan. What is the genre/rating/synopsis?
I was going to say pron but my brain broke when I realised Fuko-chan was involved. So NOT PRON. Never pron. Um...it would be late one night after Okazaki-kun has sat up watching Naruto and drinking beer when he remembers that wierd girl with the starfish who keeps uselessly appearing and then dissapearing. He happens to have been watching Gaara be evil/emo and decided that magical girl Fuko-chan could cure him so he writes a magical adventure series filled with starfish and sand.

22. Hayate-chan discovers Edgeworth and Ichigo in a compromising position. How does she react?
This is Hayate-chan so she'd probably blush and quickly leave the room then go and ask somebody some awkward questions about what two men are doing together in a closet without their trousers on...

23. If Maka-chan decided to kill Nagisa-chan, how would she go about it and should she succeed?
Let's review. Maka, from Soul Eater, is a soul technicial who makes a job out of killing things with her scyth. Nagisa-chan is a weak bodied high school girl who just wants to make a school plan, damnit! If Maka-chan wants to kill Nagisa-chan, Nagisa-chan is dead.

24. If Konata and Fate-chan had a child(assumed technology/magic if gender the same), what would the kid be like?
To start with, Fate-chan would overcompensate with her mothering and the child would be so smothered in affection you wouldn't believe. To balance that, Konata would teach it to play H-games from a young age and raise it on Eva. So you'd have a very affectionate perverted child who's mum would beat you into the ground if you looked at it wrong.

25. How would Okazaki-kun and Takamachi Nanoha react if they're bodies were swapped by magic?
Okazaki-kun would be mostly bewildered (by why he's waking up in bed naked with two women and where the breasts came from), Nanoha would immediatley see that it was an evil plot to incapacitate her so that somebody somewhere can do something unwholesome to the world. She would go to lengths to contact her friends, but befriend everyone else she meets along the way.

26. If Rock Lee was forced by Kagami to choice who lived and died between Seras and Mikuru-chan, how would Lee react?
That's easy. He'd give a long and inspiring speach about youth until they all gave up and went away.

27. Fuko-chan and Phoenix Wright get into a romantic relationship. How would it go?
Phoenix Wright takes Fuko-out for a few drinks, then realises that she's far too adorable for him to every do anything to without feeling like a pervert and, also, that she's gay for Edgeworth. That discovered, he would skip of into the sunset with Edgeworth and live happily ever after. Fuko-chan would happily go to the seaside and see some starfish.

28. Integra and Haruhi are forced by Renji to duel to the death, would either or both refuse to fight? If they both fought, who'd win? Why did Renji do such a thing?
Well, Haruhi was going to reset the earth again because Kyon cheated on her with...Okazaki-kun. That one works. Anyway, she's going to reset the earth so to stop her Soul society sends Renji to fetch Integra Hellsing. The thought process is such, we need to kill a god, who kills gods? Buffy did. And she's a vampire Slayer. Integra is a vampire slayer. Good enough. This is what passes for logic in soul society. They're both up or it. Why wins...well...we'll just have to wait and see.

And that's them all. Good night.

silvey @ 2008-09-16T21:49:00

2008-09-16T20:52:07Z

Today we bought a shiny new sofa to replace our broken one. Yay for things that aren't broken. Hopefully people will give me the money for it back soon, then I shall be content! Today has, in a general sense, been a good day.

Have a meme. It looks fun, questions from everyone plz, the wackier the better (even if you don't care about the outcome).

1) Make a list of twenty-two characters first, and keep it to yourself for the moment. (That way you're not leading the questions asked to fit the characters.)

2) Ask your flist to post questions in the comments.

For example:

'One, Nine, Fifteen and Twenty-One are chosen by a prophecy to save the world from Four. Do they succeed?'
'Under what circumstances might Five and Seven fall in love?'
'Which character on the list would you most want on your side in a zombie invasion?'
'What would Two experience in Silent Hill?'
'What Pokémon would Eight have?'
'Write a drabble in which Sixteen and Nineteen FIGHT CRIME.' </lj>(...possibly not technically a question.)

3) After your flist has asked enough questions, round them up and answer them using the twenty-two characters you selected beforehand, then post them.

silvey @ 2008-09-10T10:35:00

2008-09-10T10:23:52Z

Anyway, last night I had a dream. I'd moved into Norwich only for some reason the house in Norwich was some strange combination of university halls from first year and prospect point. We lived in this hall with a kitchen at one end. Anyway, in my dream, Malanie was the only other person in the house (and she looked suspiciously like Hetty who I lived with last year). So, we were sat in her room chatting and waiting for Anna to get back when we heard this really loud talking noise, so Melanie then opens a door in her room straight through to Anna's, which is empty, so we go through the door in Anna's room and we're in the next house along (a note, in first year halls you could come out of Kate's room via a secret door into the next block's bathroom). Melanie's like "Oh, don't worry, these people are really noisy and they never notice us, you'll get used to it". Then my dad phoned me up and asked me where I was because we were ment to meet hours ago and I woke up.

So, I had a dream with random and no clear message. Go me.

And a fanfiction meme -

If you had me under your command and could make me write anything, regardless of whether or not I know the fandom or if anybody even writes fic in that fandom and no matter how crack-addled it might be, what would you love to see me write?

And ending with a meme that I don't think anyone will do, but I'll throw it in anyway...

[1] Go to my list of fics and pick out a line or three from one of my stories.
[2] I will respond with which story of mine I think it's from. I promise I won't cheat, but I may not actually know the title.
[3] A drabble of choice for the first four of you that manage to stump me!

My writing journal

silvey @ 2008-09-08T00:32:00

2008-09-07T23:45:07Z

So, I have four pairs of jeans, a set of pjamas, two sets of bed linen and a duvet that I didn't have this morning. That means my mum is starting to get nervous about me going and insisting on buying my Useful Things I Might Need. She's already starting to annoy me about whether or not I've got everything. Very annoying.

I have 4 days to finish packing my life up, then I have to load it into the car, be driven across the country, and then unpack it again. Unpacking it is the easy part, appart from hanging my posters which always takes ages.

Three weeks tomorow I start at the John Innes. Trying not to think about that one too much right now.

It's odd, I feel almost reluctant to leave. I think it's because this time I'm not coming back, not to live, not for at least four years. This time I'm not really a student any more, not in the traditional sense. Norwich is going to be wierd too.

I've got a list of things i'm worried about as long as my arm and it's a good job I couldn't find my phone last night or I would have been sending self-destructive text messages.

I'm sure once I get to Norwich and I'm settled in and work's started up i'll be fine, it's just the waiting the gets to me. I can't help but feel that something's wrong and I can't help but worry.

silvey @ 2008-09-06T22:35:00

2008-09-06T21:37:58Z

Firefox isn't saving my bookmarks. I've just realised this today and I'm not sure how long it's been going on for. I have a massive bookmarked directory fof fanfiction that's been posted in lj communities that I've been working on for nearly six months now, I don't know how long firefox has been loosing my links and how much of that is missing. It's so stupid but I don't know what to do.

silvey @ 2008-08-29T19:30:00

2008-08-29T18:39:51Z

The Convention anti-harasment project. Something interesting and something I'll be acting on in relation to any other conventions I go to. It's a grassroots project to try and get cons to adopt anti-harrasment policy and it impliment and articulate them within the convention. I think, especially for the big cons, having something like this is becoming essential. Organisers of big cons still seem at treat the events like gatherings of a small group of friends and you simply can't run a convention with over 1000 people attending it like that. There needs to be policy and there needs to be procedure. With the bigger cons seeming to grow every year, this is only going to get more and more important.

silvey @ 2008-08-28T23:30:00

2008-08-28T23:15:52Z

1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
2: Post the first lines from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.

1. I didn't know what went wrong, I woke up one day and you had gone forever. There's no such thing as forever.
2. The rise and fall of my sloppy love.
3. I gotta go, gotta go, before I do something stupid. I gotta go!
4. You've got a great car. Yeah, what's wrong with it today?
5. If you want to see some action, gotta be the centre of attraction.
6. hoshizora miage watashi dake no hikari oshiete. anata wa ima doko de dare to iru no deshou?
7. Under this national rain cloud I'm getting soaked to the skin.
8. Just in time. I found you just in time. Before you came my time was running low.
9. I just want to feel safe in my own skin. I just want to be happy again.
10. I just found a friend in one of your lies.
11. I know that you can not be here. I know that you are not mine, no.
12. Some things in life are bad. They can really make you mad. Other things just make you swear and curse.
13. Aimai san senchi sorya puni tte koto kai? Choh! Rappingu ga seifuku...daa furi tte kotanai pu.
14. End of passion play, crumbling away. I'm your source of self-destruction
15. I could use another cigarette, but don't worry Daddy, I'm not adicted yet. One too many drinks last night, and I miss you like you were mine.
16. Small town homecoming queen, she's the star in this scene. There's no way so deny she's lovely.
17. Right now you are down and out, and feeling really crappy, and when I see how sad you are, it sort of makes me happy!
18. Something always brings me back you. It never takes too long.
19. Oh you. You come to me, oh so perfectly yeah, so perfectly babe.
20. I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me.
21. Once I was a selfish fool who never understood. Never looked inside myself, though on the outside I looked good!
22. Am I faithful? Am I strong? Am I good enough to belong in your reverie, a perfect girl?
23. Turn it inside out so I can see, the part of you that's drifting over me.
24. I've got my 12-sided die and I'm ready to roll.
25. I recomend getting your heart trampled on to anyone.
26. Well, SAD, SMALL, sweet, so delicate. It used to be this dying breed
27. I hate the world today. You're so good to me, I know, but I can't change.
28. Hello. Can I say that there's something wrong with this place?
29. Tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone.
30. Well I wanted you. I wanted no-one else.

silvey @ 2008-08-25T15:05:00

2008-08-25T14:07:31Z

You know those days when, soon after getting out of bed, you realise you shouldn't have bothered? That's me today. Oh well, I'm sure the day will be over soon, someone make sure tomorow is better for me. I needs hugs.

silvey @ 2008-08-13T23:40:00

2008-08-13T23:28:20Z

So, what have I done for the past week?

First I went to Birmingham to try and burn down Laura's house. I did not manage this. We drank to much, had lulz, played drunken poker and generally fell over. Though we did manage not to burn the house down and to mostly cook the food, which is incredibly successful for us. We took emo pictures, discussed the application of computer modeling to biological systems, and play D&D. We also ate pie and looked at shiny things we couldn't afford.

I then took a very long bus ride from peterborough (which I have decided is made mostly of car park) to Norwich so I could battle my bank (I won) and sit on the floor in the living room for a while. I mostly spent a few days with my nose in a couple of books, made too many trips to the supermarket and slept in a room full of insects (thank you Kim, it was a lot more comfy then the couch). Also cut some string of my cosplay and gave it to Nick. He's going to treasure it forever, he assures me.

Then we went to the con.

Thursday we got there and did a supply run of doom. We then decided to go along to the meet-up for people moving into accomodation early. They were expecting 40 people and got 100. In a fit of bad planning, the entire 100 of us set of for the restaurant. In a fit of bad managment, the reataurant let us in when it didn't really even vaguelly have the facilities to deal with us. About half an hour later we had a drink, three hours later we'd all eaten. The food was good, the atmosphere was good, the wait not so much so. Fun fun. We then got lost in Leicester by thinking we knew a shortcut XD Long late night walks in a unfamiliar city might not be the best plan in the world XD Oh well.

Friday we lined up and registered (Next year's badge name should be "NNN", then lined up for the dealers room (first through the door, woot), bought more shit then I can afford (but Nanoha is so pretty) then went along to the opening ceremony, which was boring and drawn out. I made it sould bad, lines aren't bad if you're in them with friends, so it wasn't so bad at all. We ran out of alcohol and went home early to drink in the kitchen. Oh, we also played "guess that tune" and didn't win XD But we had a good time. We addopted a random for a while and I drove myself mad because I recognised "Misa no uta" but coudln't remember which anime it was from.

Saturday we got in early to line up for the bring and buy XD And I wore my cosplay. It needs some mending now but at least having worn it for a day makes it clearer what needs changing and improving before I wear it again. We had a long day, went from line to line XD See, that's something it would be nicer to have a smaller con for. Smaller lines. We spent a lot of time lining up for the masquerade, but the cosplay was all very cool. A lot of fur suits this year. The charity auction was...well...I am of the oppinion that the auctioneer is terrible at what he does. He seems dismissive and disinterested in the entire thing. The rape joke was inapropriate and offensive. Overall not good. I nearly walked out after the rape joke but stayed out of morbid curiosity to see what people spent on things. Then went home and lost the cosplay that was failing and drank lots of good cider. It was a fun night.

Sunday we got up late and didn't join any lines at all. I know, shocking. Did a last trip around the dealers room then got into the worst line of the things, the omake line. Now, last year the omake was amazing. We all know this, yes? Chair and Evangelion:emo free edition? For some reason, this didn't make the commitee think that there would be a lot of people wanting to see it. Most of the con showed up. I'm not complaining about the wait, that's understandable, I'm complaining about the line and how they managed it or, more significantly, that twenty minutes after we were meant to go in, nearly two hours after we started waiting, when I was stood with Rupert on one side, Nick on the other, a wall on the other and two girls I don't know actually leaning on my back, then started crowd control. This consisted of moving everyone out, presuming they would keep the same order they had when going in. This lost us our spot just outside the door and we eneded up at the back on the side. The omake itself was good. Not as spontaneous and fun as last year, but still a damn good omake. There was a lot of comedy and yaoi references and a lucky channel skit where I only wish I could hear what they'd been trying to say. Some of them were a bit unneccesary, some parts of the smut song and some of the Top Gurran, though I absolutley loved the concept of the Top Gurran. Star in a resonably priced mech for the win! They should have parrodied the news slot though, everyone knows that's the best part of top gear short of an epic style challenge. I enjoyed this year's cookie sketch a lot more then last year's, which was good. The gopher song would have been good too, whish I could make out more of it. What the smut song did, having kareoke style lyrics on the background, was a great idea. Oh, and next year the con needs less hard gay.

In the evening we tried to get into the ball and got rejected because of fascist dress codes. Because, you know, conventions aren't about having fun, they're about serious buisness and making sure the scum stay out. Not that I'm bitter but...I'm bitter. As far as I'm concerned, the ball should be an excuse to dress up all spiffy if you want but not if you don't want or can't afford to. We ended up sat out on the steps with Nick's music and some random drunks who wandered by, then left again. We went home when it got cold and I ended up sat talking up Rupert until 5am. There was also an epic quest to save Marianne. I should also mention, through all this Sunday stuff, Nick was wearing a skirt. Great lulz, will post pictures later.

Monday we went home. Managed not to fail on the train station.

Despite all the complaining I've done, because I was hanging out with friends through all of it I still had a really good time. It was an ok con, but not a great con. I'm glad they're taking a break next year, will give Aya another try again. I don't know if I'm just getting jaded to conventions or if it's becasue Ame is getting too big or if it's organisational issues or what.

silvey @ 2008-08-11T22:31:00

2008-08-11T21:38:52Z

Hello internet. I am back and not dead. I'm running on two hours sleep at the moment so I'll do updating and all the other good stuff tomorow, just a note to let you all know I didn't die at the con, or at least not in any permanent way.